Post by PK on Aug 22, 2005 22:42:51 GMT -5
for myself. Don't mind looking for other people, but when I look for myself a job it just makes me feel totally inadequate.
Sure I been to school. Was supposed to get an education, but I didn't. I feel like I should go back through the program. Hell, Visual Basic and Networking should be a two year class.
Sure I made A's and B's. I memorized the handouts, but most of it didn't mean jack shit to me. I don't know if Misti will back me up here or not, but I don't feel like I was taught shit. I think we were rushed through the program, it should be a two year course.
So Chris thinks I should be making at least $15 an hour to start with. I'm thinking, "How?, I don't know shit."
"Oh, but they'll train you, the school just lets them know that you are teachable."
"No, in this field they expect you to know shit...way more shit than I do."
I'm not an idiot, but when I look at these job requirements I feel like one. I can build a basic website, I know basic HTML, but don't expect no scripts, no java, no Perl, no PhP, flash, Dreamweaver fancy shit, cuz I don't know it.
Networking..Ha, I can put an RJ-45 connector on a Cat5 cable...woohoo. My terminology with it is like this...
Router--cuts pretty wood patterns, or maybe it routes something.
Hub--holds your wheel on your car.
Switch--turns the lights on and off.
Well maybe I do know just a wee bit of what I think they are supposed to do, but if you threw any of them at me, I couldn't tell you what the damn thing is.
I studied and I tried to grasp it, but I guess it just wasn't my thing and now I sit here and feel like I have wasted so much time---something that I didn't need to waste in the first place, and I ain't no better off than I was a year ago.
I just want to fit in a career somewhere, and not waste any more time trying to figure out what that career is.
Okay, I will shut up before I get myself totally depressed here. It's just something I wanted to get off my chest for awhile. It's not the first time I have been verbal about it...Misti can probably attest to that, but it obviously bothers me enough that it bears repeating.
Sure I been to school. Was supposed to get an education, but I didn't. I feel like I should go back through the program. Hell, Visual Basic and Networking should be a two year class.
Sure I made A's and B's. I memorized the handouts, but most of it didn't mean jack shit to me. I don't know if Misti will back me up here or not, but I don't feel like I was taught shit. I think we were rushed through the program, it should be a two year course.
So Chris thinks I should be making at least $15 an hour to start with. I'm thinking, "How?, I don't know shit."
"Oh, but they'll train you, the school just lets them know that you are teachable."
"No, in this field they expect you to know shit...way more shit than I do."
I'm not an idiot, but when I look at these job requirements I feel like one. I can build a basic website, I know basic HTML, but don't expect no scripts, no java, no Perl, no PhP, flash, Dreamweaver fancy shit, cuz I don't know it.
Networking..Ha, I can put an RJ-45 connector on a Cat5 cable...woohoo. My terminology with it is like this...
Router--cuts pretty wood patterns, or maybe it routes something.
Hub--holds your wheel on your car.
Switch--turns the lights on and off.
Well maybe I do know just a wee bit of what I think they are supposed to do, but if you threw any of them at me, I couldn't tell you what the damn thing is.
I studied and I tried to grasp it, but I guess it just wasn't my thing and now I sit here and feel like I have wasted so much time---something that I didn't need to waste in the first place, and I ain't no better off than I was a year ago.
I just want to fit in a career somewhere, and not waste any more time trying to figure out what that career is.
Okay, I will shut up before I get myself totally depressed here. It's just something I wanted to get off my chest for awhile. It's not the first time I have been verbal about it...Misti can probably attest to that, but it obviously bothers me enough that it bears repeating.